Courtesy of, and used with permission from: Puss in Boots.
Through the magic that is Facebook, I have come across this: Be a Better Man in 30 Days .
My significant other does not need this, as he is already the epitome of an awesome man. I don’t talk about him much, because that would be weird, but suffice it to say that he is supremely supportive and incredible. If anyone ever does a study to figure out how writers end up with such amazing partners, I’m in.
Sooooo. As I was reading through the things to do on that list, I was thinking – what a fantastic list of stuff! I have all these therapy tools that I don’t like – write a list of things you like about yourself; say affirmations to the mirror, etc. And it’s not that I don’t think they work for other people. I know that they do. I just . . . it’s so . . . ick. It doesn’t work for me! (To other folks suffering from, well, anything: The statement ‘It just doesn’t workfor me’ is your get-out-of-jail-free card. No one can argue with you. If they try, you’re allowed to smack them across the face with a glove and shout things like: “The citadel at dawn, you blaggard!”)
My point is, I do still need things to do. Call it psychiatric homework. I don’t want to just medicate the hell out of myself for the rest of my life, and I want to move forward. Last week I had a ‘down’ day (The result of too much caffeine. I had no idea the effect ‘coming down’ from six espresso could have, but there I was, curled up on the couch, staring in to the void. One-cup-per-day limit for me from now on.) and in a sudden flash, I actually recognized it for what it was: Not the truth about me, not even a genuine feeling, just a bunch of too much coffee trying to work its way out of my body. I’m not saying it made me feel any better at the base level, but it allowed me to do some self-care: Do some yoga. Have a cup of tea. Take a hot bath. And go to bed early. I woke up feeling just fine.
After the ‘down day,’ I realized I’ve been coasting on the meds a little bit. I want to get back into doing the work of improving myself and my self-awareness on a daily basis. Not too long ago this would have seemed like a full-time job, but right now I think it’s something to which I could comfortably devote a few hours a day and still do everything else.
Back to the artofmanliness.com’s series from June 2009. This stuff is great! Day 1: Define Your Core Values. Day 8: Start a Journal. (I will, if history is any indication, keep that up for about three days before I get bored and add it to my box of sixteen journals, the first four pages of which are filled with crappy handwriting. But it doesn’t matter!) Day 17: Talk to 3 Strangers. These are all great things for anyone to do, and a lot of them make for great homework. Plus, there are these people who walk their GOAT on a LEASH in the park by my house, and I suddenly REALLY need to know why.
Yeah, all right, so I’ll have to work around some of them.
Anyway, I’m thinking of doing each one in a separate blog post. This also commits me to writing 30 blog posts in 30 days. What do you think? Would you be interested in reading about this?
P.S. I want to give a little hat tip to Brian Kellett, here. He wrote to me and suggested that I quit with the self-denigrating shit, as it was taking away from the flow of my blog. (though he didn’t say it quite so bluntly. He was very nice about it, which was confusing at first, but I figured it out.) I appreciate it, and noticed how hard I had to fight the impulse while writing this post.